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現在想的都是

suki ga suki ga suki....

很想說“我想我是喜歡你了”

只是沒有那個勇氣

如果有chotto suki 就請告訴我

讓我開心一點雖然不是想要什麼有什麼關係

當下一定是高興的﹐當下一定會真的

只限於當下。。

最後還是把這個想法藏在心裡

They got J-Web, so i got my T-Web. Crazy le me.

I am so unlucky. Waited very long for bus. Was suppose to be home before 5pm. On my way home saw s. Spoil our mood so i have to alight from the bus and change to other bus. Very tired and keep cant reached home.

these is what i typed on my hp.
cool!!!

my life sux because sch start.

watching Teppen PV. suddenly remind me of S. his fashion sense really very jia lat. always wear a t-shirt that is so short and that show his belly when he stretch his body. he want to act young but he dressing taste makes ppl 反胃。from the way he comment on my hairstyle can already say he really do any research on dressing and dun noe how to choose clothes that make him looks better.

something wrong with his mind also. sit near us but keep 偷看 our monitor. 沒禮貌~﹗﹗

SUN (My LaSt Day of My Break)
got fly plane by family, wanted to go celebrate oyaji's tanjobi but in the end din because of ani and many many reason.

rot at home for the whole afternoon. watching tv. that korean drama by rain and the lee dong jian, AIUEO, that comi*boys drama. computer watch mina no terebi

after that went out downstairt to eat with ani and walk to CP for shopping. bought many things. until my wallet empty.

SAT(HOME DAY AGAIN)
WM & Oyaji no tanjyobi. should have plan celebration with WM they all.

Nv go anywhere far. wake up at 3pm. watch drama engine. damn nice. tml engine ending already. realise that most of the drama either finish and going to finish. this season drama the rating all seems below 20 and only engine is more than 20.

oyaji fly aeroplane agian. wait very long yet he no come back. called him and agian because of ani fault oyaji prospone to sun.

super bored & stay on tv to watch wind struck. keep thinking does that movie have any link with my sassy gal. i think no much link also.

FRI
should have go bowling, but the weather too good already. when i finally wake up to go there because i need to pass the digital camera. don't feel like waking up to go there. sighz feel so troublesome. on my way there for that day also take longer time because got traffic jam. feel so stupid should not have go there.

well because i went there something happened. saw someone... dun noe izzit we got 孽 or its our 宿命. will talking about this someone next time. after many things, end up g*ry & cookie go with me to meet up with my ai ren.

i got meeting with ai ren in the afternoon. i feel i need to buy something. which during thursday i feel i still haven shop enough yet. cookie is hungry so we went to eat. dun noe why end up in that bald head uncle shop at FEP for lunch. they too budget lah. if not i wun 1 go there. the there food sux.. and i wait very long for them to cook my fries. few mth later when i go there maybe the place tou liao.

ai ren skip work because we all want to have fun.now i can understand why fei wen nan you also dun like them the reason. anyway i not those 小氣type. we take very long to reach last 2nd stop of east line that place. poor me & ai ren. we all went KTV. this is when me and ai ren can enjoy ourself. the two guys are so funny. esp g*ry sing so monotone one.  they joke alot siahz.

THURS
wake up damn early for the trail, not intresting. being dental assitant is not a easy job. must stand and obserb what the dental do. even some denture stuff also must do. after every patient must change glove. wipe the chair. and my god.. those still got to wash those metal stuff and dry it. tot they use le throw away one. their denture got 4 stages one. then the dental must keep make changes to it. overal whatl i can say is that we must and its very important to take care of our teeth.

hope they dun call me anymore. i want to find other job.

take a super long bus to FEP since i was early. last min give ai ren a call to come meet up with me. call her pei wo go the salon. went there for hair cut and dye hair. ai ren also go there highlight her hair. spent 3 hrs there.  when we about to pay money and go. got one xiao didi so cute come and disturb me. i 太有小孩子人緣 already. this xiao didi become our photographer to take picture of us wif our new hair.

toilet there was all down. so we went to the DFS next side. we siao le.. toilet also go a high class place. haha cannot wait mah too urgent already. SUGOII that place. remind me of a song. "IF i was a rich girl NAnana..."

okasan went to bankok yesterday. she will be back on monday.

went for trail job. dental job is not easy.. esp being assistant. i want $$. if they want hire me i will go work lo.

after that went for haircut and dye hair. spent alot.

a short report here tml will write more.

watched shonen clubu, the producer for this week is jin. haven got the sub version yet. the first part is funny. ryo with his evil tounge agian suan jin "tot is LOVE & PEACE, where got Love and Natural?"

hehe aiyoo not use to tis mth shonen club. should have uchi inside but during that time he in hospital. k8 got many nice song this week but uchi not around. they got sing << believe my story>> that one is his SOLO siahz..  sob sob.

back to jin part. alot of part dun really understand but the part he talk about the things that he loved. when he mention KT that time the screen show all the members. they at behind dancing and having fun. JIN turn back that time the screen imediately change to other picture.

got many nice song such as ainokatamari, care and precious one. ending part alot of nice song. i think he unknowly point out his midde finger in the part he sing <<CARE>> after that he realise not gd.. he quickly move his hand away.

doing my poster. print photo. out for shopping. ate cheesecake. buy clothes at FOX. skull head shirt got the big logo so decided not to buy. walk around F^E^P found place to dye hair but din found any clothes there. i think my taste in clothes change liaoz. more mature type. dun 1 to be so style because in my sch japanese style will cause u have unwanted attention.

Friday

bowling agian. It was quite fun but i dun like eat KFC so much often. Went for job interview and its was like very rush and wonder why ppl go that area want to share cab. In the end i pay for the fare because was late le.take train go there is cheaper but require longer time.

Saturday

misery day. doing that things i hate most and worry for my pp presentation. rot at home. at night tv got johnny's stuff showing on mtv channel.

Sunday

pri sch friend's son birthday. so cute.. her 1 year old boy boy. kiazz i see cute cute boys esp kid who are guai guai and easy to play with. so envy her as young mother. being young mother at least wun have any big age gap with children next time. sadly in our society, its not recommand having kids at such a young age because when we are 18 or 19 we still schooling how to have kids. something sad for me is at this age, i dun even have a bf. so talk about kids and marriage is too early liao.

I think is i am influence by uchi liaoz.he got a young mama and papa. he was born when his parent was 18. so young loh. no wonder he always say he love his mama so much and want to get married early.

so if i my prediction is true i think my friend's son grow up will prefer her more than her husband. haha.

HEY HEY HEY

watch heyx3. a funny variety show. this week is kinki so i watch it. dun noe why that two guys keep suaning kinki. so bad. i know they both joker but really dun understand what they joking about see their action will just laugh. their bowling is so funny, not very pro. like the part when the two guys(think the host of the heyx3) start to imitate johhny's san speaking style. they keep "YOU" with (japanese words) which i dun understand.*anyway johhny san always like speak with the first word starting with YOU* his trademark words haha. so when kouchi and tsuyo play until so lousy they buey song so they go act like kinki big boss(which is johnny san) and scold them.

Monday

sleep until very late and wake up in the noon. prepare awhile then go school wearing until very messy and carry so many thing. went to sch and realise the libary going to close in 2hrs time. cant do much there also. went there to see other ppl poster and get idea from it. too many ppl inside there cant do the things i hate most in school. must go hunt for other quiet place.

on my way home saw Z*N and we walk to the train station. just i was about to board the train, i received a call to tell me that my mum wun be buying dinner tonight. so i called my best friend and ask him go out eat dinner with me. cafe cartel. sadly i so hungry that i forgot to take the picture of the food.

after that went shopping, saw skull t-shirt. ehhh but i dun like that shop logo there. ^_^ min 2 piece. feel like buying because quite cheap. must find kaki buy with me liao. libr^ chan u want??

還是開不了口~

在覺悟的時候﹐我想到一個很好的方法來克服了~
還是有創意的腦袋最好。

did something silly yesterday. i go complian to my dad hope that things will be better but in the end matter become worst. after that even my mum also start to nag. sighz. worst case.

我是那個活在幸福中的不幸。got people pay for my bills and take care of my daily needs but yet i am the one who is being left out. my plans for the future really depands on my determination. akiramenai~ 我要成功﹗﹗﹗

Aim to have a better future.
A Better Tomorrow.

我想要靠自己
雖然我知道我很多都不懂.

我真的不明白他所教的東西.
也許我讀書喜歡自己關自己
不喜歡別人關我.

我該怎麼開口?
跟他說
很不高興呢

反正人生是自己的該做什麼都由自己決定的
就算最後是不好的結果絕對不會後悔

如果要後悔也是後悔3年前的事吧~
(不接那電話然後當重考生或是那時考試時如果不要緊張)

我不覺得那很失敗
如果沒有那3年前的事
我想我的人生也就和現在不一樣

好了決定在明天就開口~
later做一點好了

我恨死M了

Bought new phone~ nokia 3230

basically i can capture things i see these days.

these photo taken on thursday~!!

ya i went to hunt for part time job.

TUESDAY

Forgot wat i do already but i open up to eat the chocolate which my cousin bough from london.

WEDNESDAY

went to visit dentist san~ my teeth is so clean~ went to kuali for dinner with libr^ chan. many sweet food there. i feel the food there is very limited. good to aim for desset like cakes and pastery there. Our entertaiment is to see the 4 boyz at the table beside us. got one guy clebrating b-day there. they eat alot and  also doing silly things. The damn nice and powerful chocolate cake no ppl dare to take because kuali nv cut up properly for ppl one loh. This 4 boyz are the one who finish the whole cake.Lucky we eat 1/10 of the cake before they finish up all. Thanks girlz2 for that meal~

Bought that cheap cheap GIO shirt~ to show off to goose that she really have bad taste in dressing.

THURSDAY

Job hunting. After that went to eat ice-cream and scout for place where we can eat nice nice food. Found a few good place but we have to eat dinner at home. Below are the picture that i took yesterday.While walking back home from the lift i saw a reddish skyline.

140 days of misery. my life will never be the same agian. some things which i hate most has nothing to do with my future.makes me very upset and dun feel like doing it is because that someone keep insist me to do it. yet i hate it when i dun have the answer. i hate to think about it. really dun noe how to say about my feelings. maybe i should not stingy go spent money buy my own book and study on my own outside. hitoride benkyou koto ga dekiru.

i should have secretly register for the exam and secretly study myself. now thinking about it and realise that i am a BAKA~

什麼都不想要做的我腦袋滿滿的~

如果看過 butterfly effect 的人
就能了解我多么希望自己能像男主角一樣能回到過去改變一些事情

現在什麼都改變不了
我還是需要pass that thing i hate most因為我要畢業
如果他們不需要我們pass的話就不會那麼痛苦了
本來是說不用的為什么他們要改﹗﹗
氣死人
什麼爛學校
我那些 sec sch朋友fail的都不retake還不是過的很好.

sun --->spent my day at home doing something with i hate the most. meet up with libr& chan for dinner at swensen. pepper chicken, seem not very yummy one. ice-cream is nicer. we wanted to spent at least 30 dollars in the meal but end up we spent only 28 dollars.. we managed to spent 30 at fair price buying things..

mon --> went for driving lesson, damn happy is car 1 uncle teach me. today no car 5 uncle. think tis week he work afternoon shift. meet up with my bro to buy new phone but so sway. the phone i want buy no more stock. having flu and finally he start revise with me something i hate most. took away the answer sheet and call me do somemore.就這樣﹐粉碎了我想要做的self revision. i hate to think bahz..i feel if i go do more.. i will eventually understand.

have a very 好玩的 wed,thurs and friday~

wed -->去了打保齡球和玩撞球。有機會能打撞球而且還是免費的當然開心呢~

thurs -->去了游樂園玩 好開心雖然有天氣點熱。最愛就是 go kart. 喜歡玩有速度的東西。好想去國外的樂園玩比較好玩。那是我的目標﹐有點害怕但是還是很想玩。

fri -->保齡球﹐一場好﹐一場就不好。老實說其實我一點點為自己驕傲because 我又有high score 了。 後來跟rumors bf一起吃 yakun。我現在又很想再吃一次。真的好愛吃烤麵包with butter and kaya. french toast with cheese. 沾雞蛋的麵包和cheese. 

today 又是在家的一天滿腦都是chinese words所以用大多數的中文打了。

i went online to read some shuojo comic. went to read about the story of skipbeat my favourtie character is kyoko. will talk about her some other days. 現在才出到 act 70 only. 很精彩了可是下個 act 要等到 7月才有。

一件很難過的事是karekano 已經到了尾聲了。完結了。 好想看更多。 ending 還不錯。 是16 years later後的他們. 看了有好多感觸呢。

back to english, its summer time?? or rainy season? i always tot june will be rainy season but seem like its more of a summer season. i can say that i cant lived without air-con. now don't feel like staying at home because of the stupid hot weather. somemore now dun even have my private 空間. no tv to watch at room. must watch in living room. so boring.

watched the june shonen club. this time the fliming is at osaka. this mth jin jin like not very genki genki. i also damn sad because tis mth no uchi in shonen club due to that time he was in hospital. osaka his hometown. anyway something very intresting. i notice that osaka jr are all very good looking. there is one guy who can speak chinese. his name is nakama junta.

i like kame and jin version of kizuna. anyway i don't like subaru la.. k8 i just dun like 3 of the guy initial by *SHY*(dun hate them)

went gym with okasan, she was so happy. i also happy for her. her leg and hand still weak. i feel she need more exercise. After the workout i headed toward to *HM* to make appointment with mr dentist. went to buy drinks should have buy fruit juice. The happy cup pineapple snowshake taste yucky and it cost me $3. i think rockey snowshake is better. maybe i should go Kopi diam there buy fruit juice.

hang around at a bookshop(this bookshop is around everywhere at most shopping center). went to read a chinese book, which is called" open the tuna can"(that MR T from EX-EG bk) Phew lucky i nv buy last time if not i will regret, inside all picture and some stuff that i read online before already.

yesterday went for the w0rkshop for the security talk for my creative pts. The minute we went there we sian 1/2 already because the speaker is from the <<button society>> . anyway dun understand his alien english langaue from dun noe what button planet. if we stay on we will need to endure 3 days. Without hesitation we just left the place after the first break out.

we went to S^Ntec to hunt for food and decided to go that indonesia resturant. That buffet lunch not bad lahz but got a 1 or 2 dishes we dun eat de loh. the server there like so rush and they are so fast. when we finish our dishes we still want somemore but not sure whether we can get one more plate or not. we wanted to ask see they walking so fast so we keep say wait awhile. something funny happened.. the sever come and ask us is there anything we want to order. hehe~ so we just order somemore.

after our meal, we went to walk around. feel like going arcade to play the drum.we saw someone very familar. that person is ah liang, he was playing drum mania. haha libr& chan not eye cork anymore she also notice him there almost the same time. something very hazukashi i sux at playing the drum -__-!!!  saw him gd got kuruma. he offer to us go HF so we can take train go home easier. we so stupid loh when he throw rubbish we also follow him. his family like yami yoghut ice-cream too much le ar? i asked him a stupid question.人家不是故意的.he too 客氣了.dun noe is i nv go dig my ear often or his voice and 空氣 are good friend.(聲音被空氣吃掉了) maybe not close friend lah so dun dare 發揮 my evil touge 的 power.

reached home that time feel super full the indo buffet really power. 夠利害!!

watched a movie called ima ainiyumemasu (現在很想見你). I also forgot how i came upon this movie but because i think maybe because of 竹內結子. Likes the drama she acted and heard about the news of her getting married with that guy in the movie. Most important thing that this story is also something like 世界的中心呼喊愛. acutally i nv really watch that drama, watch abit only lahz.. but i feel movie is nicer leiz cause its shorter. ima going to be flim as drama next season. ya and ta-kun is going to be acted by hiroki(not uchi worz~) so i very 期待 the drama version of this movie.

i feel its very meaningful eventhough the story like not really realistic. My warm up is to watch the introduction of the movie is about the 18 years old yuji talking about his parents love story and hope he also met his another half just like wat his parents are. that YUJI really  handsome leiz.. tat guy which i mention about in my previous entry.

okiez back to the moive. when i watched the movie, i finally understand the whole story and i realise tat guy have less scene in that movie. only starting part and ending part. the rest of yuji is that small little boy. Kawaii nez~ i dun 1 type the story out lahz. dun 1 to be spolier kiazz~ acutally is me lazy lar. 

starting part is about Ta-Kun & Yuji. the birthday cake that a bakery man deliver to yuji for his birthday. which later in the part of the story i understand that it was acutally mio who order it and request the bakery to send it to yuji as a present for 12 years until yuji was 18 year old.(so touching~~)

then it was back to past. On that rainy season on why mio is back. that's when Ta-kun telling mio (who has forgotten who she was) about their love story in the past. they start to fall in love for the 2nd time.

many things happened and one day mio found out about her dairy and read it. it at tat time  she realise she is already dead and will disappear after the rainy season. ya so that when i understand at the starting part how older yuji can manage the household matter like cooking because its was mio who start to teach him after she found out the truth.(she is worry for yuji and ta-kun, afraid that when she is not around ta-kun cant look after himself)

the most most touching part is that after she 消失. ta-kun go read her dairy. from that time when they first met mio already likes him le. there is a part she met with an accident and she sort of travel past the time to 9 years later (which is that rainy season when she is back with the family) found out that she will only lived till 27 years old. she know that her fate will change if she nv go and find ta-kun but because she loved him so much so she decided to find him. so this explian the reason why she is back during that rainy season 1 year after she died.(we know 人死是不能復生 unless there is 奇蹟 which is 穿越時空) the storyline is 合理 and not 誇張.

will end here lez. got to go sch tmr. i got tis feeling that i will not last the whole day for that workshop.

suddenly i have tis 悲觀 feeling about my 畢業. 錢財是身外物, 如果花點錢能settle我的問題 我真的 dun mind.或出去了.

那年21歲的我能夠混的了大學嗎? 只要不是IT的就好

okiez!! offical start of my san weeks holiday. so happy finally no need go to the place that i hate most.

this holiday also not a mth to enjoy lah. i need to find job and earn money. Settle project and my presentation.

just now my bro go use my laptop without my permission kaoz..hope he dun KPO go view anything here.

jc forum is on hintus these days. i not sure what happened inside. a few days ago when i try to visit it already on hintus. i know there are many forum out there, i feel this is one of the best english forum about johnny's ent.

so boring cause libr& chan will be away for a 2 to 3 days. just now she msg me but i was away so din get chance to chat with her. Got things to chat with her. gonna wait for the next time when she online.

oh ya holiday got w*rkshop, heard *x* san managed to sign up and got in. sighz.. which mean we got to see him these days. anyway we got no choice still got project things haven settle with him yet. We dun see *S* we still must see *X* so no good days liaoz.

anyway i was so stupid... i forgot totally that we exchange password. he abuse it and go choose the module we are talking and now his life miserable and also my life miserable.

endure --> nana weeks to go before the sem ends.你狡滑我就更狠. i hope next sem will be a better sem.我要光榮畢業哈哈!!! 弟我們next sem 跟定你了.

i feel i more into pi and jin together stuff but if they invovle love love between the two of them when think about it will give me goosebump la. i dun mind they both pair as super gd friend those gd bro pairing. my fav paring with be pi and jin compare to jin and kame.

super tiring day. this morning wake up feeling that i was totally lost touch with what i was doing. was awake physically but my mind was on another diamension or i can say my mind is spinning around.

libr& chan and my di m3lvin make the day fun esp with our daily chat on all sort of things. ya we like to make fun of many things. we also talk about something lame on how breast can be bigger. m3l say that he heard that papaya milk can help to make your brea$t bigger that why sometimes girls likes to drinks and when we talk about swimming he also share with us that those swimming also can make brea$t bigger. okiez i think i stop here on those topic we talked about. anyway he is not hentai guy, basically we are just crapping about.

*x* san still the same.. when we about to go out for lunch we saw him walking down alone. my friends saw him and see his face very black. after that he start to spy on us behid, quite scary lei, he was standing at the bridge there looking at us walking. i can see him hiding behid the tree. wonder he will start cursing us for leaving him behind or wat. he still 執迷不悟.

most pissed part is today project discussion with the fac. her attitude also damn sian. she keep wanting to see the milest*ne chart and want to see our flow plan. she wants to meet us in holiday but i want to meet her up after holiday because i dun 1 to go to sch during holiday. i want to spent the holiday doing the project and maybe touch on the coding. i feel i got no mood to do the project, she is making a mess of our plan.

after the meeting, me and libr& waiting 1 hr more for a talk to start. the talk is super boring.i can say is so stupid and abit disgraceful. how the topic can shift from political issue on what woman needs in life(comparing about to woman and man at work force & family management) to people or woman getting"#AIDS#" faces discrmination by the socitiey that they did something wrong. anyway what they all say there seem off track.

現在的人生就像是人間失格一樣。。。
真理在哪裡﹖我只知道很多東西是不公平的

沒關係我只是在報怨吧了

痛苦是因為不甘被人採在頭上而什麼都不能做
還是要保持笑容面對那些人
我要堅強﹗﹗

人心作祟﹖害人家的人如果說聲道歉就能解決問題的話那些所做過的事情還能回到原來的樣子嗎﹖
別人的美好未來也會因為有些人的不擇手段而破碎。
我討厭那些只為自己不顧朋友的人。

雖然我不是100%元氣的人﹐做事也不是那種超級完美的人。我有好好的做事。

有些人因為嫉妒和一心想為自己陷害朋友
有些人沒有自己的判斷能力和別人合力來玩弄朋友
有些人飽沒事做胡言亂語在別人面前裝可憐

我和我的老公一樣得了“無法相信別人”的病了

是知道沒辦法傳達的痛苦
還是不知道被看穿的人沒有防備的緊張?

just watched engine LAP 2.. damn nice.. the part where he was saying what he feel about the unfairness in life. god create every one to be equal but that's rubbish. we are all being group in many different class. he mention that the unfairness in life is asolutely occurs around, there is still possible for a person without anything wining over people who has everything. The possible is not zero.

okie, btw i am mean.. i like to see him bullying the kids.. -___-!!  i knows even if bully thems he still cares for them. i like his frank frank charater in this role.ya like jiro of his baka like a kids behavior and pure behaviour.

some people keep scolding me baka ar... but i dun like it ne~ its not in that kinda of sistuation to scold people baka. very wrong. its only when u do something silly or foolish then u scold a person baka. not because you nv reply msg fast or for small matter u make replying something then the person not happy about it and he scold u baka. dame dame yo~

okie back to serious topic.. today bad day for the class. anyway its was first time in my life i have so many "ZAO NIE". anyway we all managed to survive the lesson today. we all change team loh.. some ppl zao nie, go complian to fac when she cause the trouble herself. heard she is jealous that day her team mate also her then friend and another girl went down without her. she just angry and delete the other girl slides. btw they are in the same team.after that she complian to the fac about everything all these. she anyhow accuse ppl nv do work all these. tat day all of us request to choose our own team and the fac agreed and say if we all are happy we this arrangement she will go ahead with it. everything because messy after this her complian. since they choose their own team if got anything happened they should settle among themself not find fac and complian.trying to give herself reason and hope she can get better grades... fat hope!!

anyway, that fac reshuffle the teaml. i am very unhappy about it. we try to argue but this fac say it was her regret to let us choose our own team. This battle she only win half only even if we not allow to be in same team with our friends we still can survive because at least we are not like some people got mental problem. she can happily sit there alone do her own thing and i don't see her team member got communicate with her. I think her grade will just be average. if i see her i wun give good face to her. last time i try to be netural toward her, now its different.

one more thing.. she is crazy and angry that the gal she deleted the slides for having better grades than her. heard her grumbling and wanted to complian to fac agian.

i today so affected by horo.. keep singing the elephant song and scolding zao nie~ tml i will try to be good. I want to be a DA HAO REN~~

gomen ne~ i not those type that is 24/7 will stick to a person. i love myself more, people who loves me. i love my idols, drama, and comic. i love food. i love to dream. i love music, guitars and reading, talking rubbish.

i hate having C in my daily grade,hate school, lose face in front of people, being scolded by people when i don't think i am wrong, letting ppl know that sometimes i scare of being Xxxxxx (clue wat jin say to yamapi in the letter in shonen club)

氣氛

無奈

明天要吵架嗎﹖﹖

要奮鬥下去嗎﹖

minna 加油!!!

在說電話好想放電話 因為有點累﹗﹗

having my yummy lunch at 4:10pm. it was kimchi noodle. been eating this almost everyday.. i really like the taste haha.. abit hot and sour.

its was my off day today can consider half-time of the week. tml still got more things to worry about. esp the class.. there are some childish people out there. we all are poly student not pri sch kids. our team is working base on team work. acutally so happy that this fac let us choose our own team. somewhere out there got some problem. this *#)#@ girl suddenly act dao and start to have conflict with her team mate.. basically this gal is crazy or have some problem in her brain. heard that last time she everytime complian to change team all these. troublesome. me and my friends all very unhappy why we and her in same class cause its was very unluckly to be in same class as her.

okie she used to be my ai ren best friend and suddenly start to not to friend my ai ren. dun noe the reason also. one day i heard from my ai ren its was because of me. watashi?? !!!! anyway i think she is out of her mind, she goes around telling people that me and my ai ren bully her. is she crazy or wat.. i dun even see her in sch that often and i cant even be bother her since she is not really my friend or wat. since when my ai ren bully her, my ai ren also got her own friends, she cant accpet the fact that my ai ren and her still got many ppl in between them and start to jue jiao with my ai ren.

anyway think she hates me to the core lah... too bad loh.. if she choose to think tis way.. my 出现 is her 悲剧的开始 so its her 宿命that i will make her life suck.. anyway being same class as her already made my life sux. she is so problematic...

she 造孽 in sch and ppl will come and complian to my ai ren. my ai ren and her also no longer friend anymore. poor ai ren so poor thing. of course i will side with my ai ren.. 不是ai ren的朋友就不是我的朋友。

dl speed at less than 20kb/s is killing me!! took me many hours of waiting!!
i tried many method already. recently it boast to 50kb/s and suddenly it just drop.. wonder if it was just i am paranoid or is my service provider problem!!! i not sure too.

is my bitc*met going crazy?? i just now try to turn the upload speed to 100kb/s it really allow upload up to 100kb/s. i am totally shocked... i want high dl speed not high upload speed. dun noe how to fix the problem. try many ways its just the problem wun go away.

school agian tml!! so fast... i wish i dun have to go sch tml... sick and tired of it!! someone trying to pretended that nothing happened and move on with life. anyway i hope i can be more brave and believe in myself more. Have more confident.

15 weeks left to go.. anyway.. offically i only got for 14 weeks so now i have 13 weeks to go.

i want to complete many things and also earn $$ so go go go FIGHTO!! wish everyone have a fruitful week and good luck!!

人的個性不是因為外表的醜陋而就此結束了
如果能成熟一點﹐冷靜一點﹐和學著去不介意一些小事情
你的人生也就此不會在STOPPING的階段

在我學校上課了快要2年了雖然不知道自己在做什麼
覺得現實和理想有很大的差別
每次在想到為了什麼原因而來到那裡上課就很氣
如果能會到2002年的6月那該有多好
但是想到因為這樣才和志同道合的人邂逅了成為了好朋友

雖然我的好朋友都是很少在我的身邊但是只要有什麼事我都會義不容辭的幫忙。

感覺最近有很大的煩惱不知道該從那裡說起。。。
我都不想去想﹐因為不是什麼大不了的事情。。。

有些人因為和別人不合就每天跟我嘮叨
可以不用去想這麼多just don't bother about it.
like everything is my fault like that
又不是我跟別人不合 somemore i and they all are friend.

well i nv do anything wrong also... i feel that person maybe most of the time think only for himself.

The song 木乃伊 very nice. esp the music.

come here to blog for awhile before i sleep. very uncertain of what will happened tml.
i don't think i will do well in poly this sem. i will just be a average student who aim for a B in my daily module grades.

watch this drama 我成功的秘訣 today. the part when suzuki gave all his 50 000 to someone who need help with debts. he was really foolish bahz.. maybe what he say is right, u help people and those good things will come. in the end it turn out that someone nv repay his help and betrayed him.

its is right to help people but there is always a limit. 我的想法都是站在能保護我自己的立場嗎﹖也許吧。

sighz my luck been quite bad these days. Do anything also 不順利.
this year nothing good has come yet. if can just don't do anything maybe i wun feel so upset. when u work hard on it and realise because it your bad luck that cause u not successful in the things you do its very sad ne~

 know ai ren been encouraging me, she say its 人生的考驗。agreed with her nothing in life is smooth one. its my 宿命。 got her support 我會加油的。

school has started for 2 days.
its 3:11am now in the morning.
tmr no school so i wun be sleeping early.

lesson is can say boring. everything become very draggy now. why must we change class every sem. when u got in to the class and those people you don't really know very well. its really hard to be happy also.

the most angry part is that u every morning wake up at 6am leave home for sch at 7am. stuck in school until 4pm. if we present at 2pm we could have jolly well go home before 3:30pm. 4pm u still have to squeez with many people. somemore waste time so much time explaining to the fac the same thing over and over agian.i feel there we don't need to drag so long on those things one.The fac will cover it at 6th presentation. We also got do our research and read the resources so don't have to explaining things agian and agian.

acutally i cant be bother about it also. i just want to finish this course quickly.
mother hen lesson is so boring. i in a team which i don't really know the people well. wonder if we can choose our own team or not. There is also one werid person in the class, keep looking at my darling(a friend nick) for wat. she din't owe you any money lei.

okie 2 more days to go....

start school soon liao

okie my computer has revive le.. very happy...

everything is running well and no more rubbish screen from the stupid school.

wish to talk more but going to sleep. wait till tml!!

going to be slacker for a week..

just doing nothing... just watching video. want finish up that report by end of this week before school reopen. so i can prepare for them to call me up for the presentation.

oh yes i finally finish last week shonen club... really like it very much. KOKI as producer. damn cool! in The YO YO Check it Out Mode liao.. like his JOCKER JACKET.. behind got print his name. WOw small YUTO can dance hiphop yo.. so cute yo.... this week got alot of YUTO.. on tv lah.. on video.. he really capture my attention. i wish i have a younger bro like YUTO. Notice alot of JR like kiss my ft & ABC+TOSHIN.. so they are those skater loh.. i notice one got the hairstyle like tsuyoshi one. dun noe his name lah..  They also got BAND lei..their song is very nice and they guy can play solo very well.. even the drumer also can sing. I think the guitarist and the drummer sing very well. The keyboardist is very talented lah got the yi shu jia style. i feel toshin he like could have a more offical group. usually we see him dance with ABC but he is not in ABC. I think his not yet at his peak of career like KT.. kame and him same age. he got act in the yomegaeri movie but he not yet so popular yet. i wonder how come he nv debut cd together with news.. maybe last time if he got debut with NEWS think news will have going to have 10 people... very crowded bahz. maybe its fate bahz.. there are people who just only dance and dance behind. Acutally ABC singing also not bad.

finally download the file which 1 waited for 1 days to watch it got BAND ^QUESTION^ which i mention just now. I think the name not bad lei... will they one day become like TOKIO and able to debut. Okie then next song i look forward in the clip is kiss kara hajimaru misuteri- got  kame and jin RAP. JIN, he know how to capture the camera attention. when the camera aim at him he will give those expression that he want to flirt with the people watching the program & make me have attention on what hand sign and expression he going to make. *Wink* *Wink* at the camera... (dun noe wat i talking also liao) kame also got but he is not a baka like JIN haha.. think he purposely fall down from a chair and everyone will just SCREAM.

okie i want to watch drama... aikurushi been looking for the sub but cant find it. maybe must give them sometime to work on it. i know this season drama wun have like last season gokusen2 so fast being subbed.. Maybe i should find thost fan site which they got the lobang to find where to get the sub-version. YA loh why my nihongo no so powerful if not will understand very well wat they saying. i wun enjoy watching if i know only 50% of what they saying. I will be wonder what those words meaning.

Been updating here quite regularly... i online at msn often mahz

4am le still haven sleep... i been enjoying my vacation by sleeping very late because its was the only time i can sleep late.

april le going to be may in about 20 days.. time like pass very fast or i can say slow? i feel when i busy i feel the time pass very fast... when i so free the time like pass very slow.

光陰矢のごとし (kouinyanogotoshi) time and tide wait for no man.

toki ga rekishiwokizamu o miru miru.(grammer ga chigau omouideshita)

nihongo o oshiette kudasai ne~

my lao gong tsuyoshi 26th b-day today!!! Whooo YeaH!!! wonder how he spent the day.. alone?? with family?? wif kouchi?? i think most prob with kenshiro! haha

yesterday is yamapi birthday! He spent with JIN and his friends!! So CooollZZZ

he remind me that in oct i will have to say bye bye to my 10s and welcome 20s

ya.. can no longer being teenagers le!!!

about look me look me and Stopi Stopi.... its just from some funny clip on kame and junno which i saw on shonen club... they were playing catching.

talking about shonen club something very funny i want to say about.. is when jin was singing he was sitting the chair.. and he so baka go and push the chair backward and he just fall down from the chair. ahaha i just notice it. wonder is he did it on purposely or wat lah.. dun follow kame lei.. that time he dance messenger he also fall down.

its was only last mth shonen club then we heard him talking about the experience of him falling down. i guess if we wanna find out if he really did it on purposely we must wait 1 year later le.

using this at title is just for fun. trying to make use of the japanese words

空白?

anyway i am happy! kai xin lah only two of us know what happened yesterday.

we two are just crazy, crazy crazy,crazy x100

hao jie mei you really gd worz kept our promise. ai si ni le!!

updated some parts for today...

basically i was just sleeping and sleeping the whole day.

change abit of the module selection...i saw got infra got 2places so i quickly call my friends to change to the infra module. when they reach the page they say no more infra le!! freak!! i tot nobody will go and choose that module so soon one. hope tml got ppl give up the infra space. i know i too rash but thinking about it if i nv let go the places how will other ppl willing let go of taking infra module. okie its fate le lah.. i think we will still be in same class one lah. san xin liang yi la me.

~ima wa koibito hoshikunai~ usojyanai

slacking around at home the whole day... even though sleep very little but just don't feel like sleeping also la..

thinking about many stuff. lisitening to song. looping on the same song. something say le also no use.

now things decided must not give up already. must go ahead with the plan. something that require time and money.

future is so uncertain lah...

太多未知數﹐也許是因為現實的殘酷我還是決定遠離了愛情。

just complete the japanese drama kyumei 3.. like the ending so touching and inspire people not to give up. glad to see that kazuya end up being a doctor. very handsome ar! somemore he dye his hair black. give me the feeling that the last eposide is flim on maybe a few days before the last eposide. ya its also touching for them to say that shindo sensei is in maybe somemore in this earth saving other people. somehow can understand what this drama is about but dun noe how to express it out here lah.

omedetou, thanks girl for sharing the good news with me.

oh man guess poly life something suck abit lah.

enjoy my outing today haha.. talk many gals stuff and gossip... yes yes i love gossip and bitch about people... YEA.. AND I KNow ITs BAD but i like it la.

hope wednesday will be fun fun also...

officially declare i like BAKA & SEXY GUYS!!